I am an ordinary Nepali guy with limited ambitions and desires. I am honest that's why sometime I face extreme difficulties in exploring myself amongst others. But I can not remain sternly silence for what I see and what I listen. People have right to wonder who is this guy who tells himself honest. I believe in comments. Even though, I feel bad, when I get negative one. I am a human. That's why I am sensitive and react on what people say about me. I am greedy too because I am a human. I have such nature to be happy in appreciation and sad in depreciation. I think it is too much… Let’s come to the point. I am an undergraduate student studying community development & social services in Finland. Partly I am working as a Socionom in one disable care home in Finland. Besides I am an independent social film maker and script writer running one Non Governmental Media Organization (NGO) Silver Lining Creation in Finland. Side by side, I am a struggling & fledgling book writer. Currently, I am writing two fiction books: one in my mother language Nepali and another in English. Therefore, your comments are worthy for me.
ONCE AGAIN SOMEONE IS IRRITATED BY MY BROWNISH LOOK!
....Once again, they talked with me about my colour. Yesterday I felt myself discriminated by one of my work colleagues and some strangers at railway station. My colleague said to me, she had to go to pick her car from Koivukylä, a place in VantaaCity during the evening but she is afraid of going there. She continued telling me that she had fear of getting looted or insulted by dark skin people, means immigrants. She didn’t even notice or feel hesitate to say so in front of me. Perhaps, she forgot that I am also an immigrant. But it hurt me. Anyway, I finished my work and was going to railway station, while walking, there is a bit of isolated place nearby station, a middle aged man saw me and started to yell ‘ Vittu Apina (Fucking Monkey) Crazy Man’. Same incident happened few days ago nearby KELA in Järvenpää. Someone again got irritated with my brownish look , and black and long hair . When he saw me coming out from my car immediately started to shout the same word but when I turned towards him, he didn't have courage to continue. Fortunately, at that time, I was with my wife and little daughter.I felt really angry with such attempts of those people but I wanted to talk with one of them who shout on my way to rail way station but he also escaped from there right away. I mean if you don't have courage to stand for what you says, why do you try to say something. I reached station and another wise white man was telling to me, all the train services are offered to white people at any time but not for dark skin people. Why do they think so? Having brown skin is my sin or what? Am I from another planet? Why do they think so? I have never dominated any person having white colour in my life. Why do they think, they are superior? But I think those people are timid one who are not sure about themselves and thier existance. They are the greatest losers and people having identity crisis.Today, I am really frustrated and sad by their behaviour shown to me. I am not telling them to respect me or say hello to me .If they don't like my look, I tell them simply to avoid my presence as I do in such situation. But if it always goes in this way, it is really intolerable, If he (that particular person) wants to talk about my colour, why don’t he realize that dark skin is not like white skin. It remains always dark no matter either you are sad or happy. As such, dark skin people born with dark skin and die with dark skin. But white, if you really want to comment on my dark skin, let me comment on yours. When you born, you born with pink white mix, when you grow, grow white, in sun get boiled red, in cold blue and nose as if squeezed very badly, and when you die, die gray. So tell me now, am I monkey? If I am a monkey, then who are you - A GHOST?
Sorry to say so. It is not intentional and not meant to hurt anyone. If it hurt someone, who doesn't have any problem with my brownish look and long hair, I sincerely apology with them
Awww Som those people.... I can understand your frustration. Skin color stays no matter what, but color is only skin deep, it doesn't tell anything of the person, not like yelling stupid things to others, that already tells a lot of that person. And I have to say it's not anything good. Some of those people are simply stupid, some really angry inside and they try find all kind of targets to release their anger. Unfortunately there are also those people who really see white color to superior to the any other colors of the world. Those people are really scary, their hard is hardend and they are capable for anything. I am sorry Som that you have to face that kind of behavior. You shouldn't, no one should. Stay strong. Everyone of us has to take responsibility of this world and lets try together to educate people to love and care of eachothers. With big hugs to you Tanja
Awww Som those people.... I can understand your frustration. Skin color stays no matter what, but color is only skin deep, it doesn't tell anything of the person, not like yelling stupid things to others, that already tells a lot of that person. And I have to say it's not anything good. Some of those people are simply stupid, some really angry inside and they try find all kind of targets to release their anger. Unfortunately there are also those people who really see white color to superior to the any other colors of the world. Those people are really scary, their hard is hardend and they are capable for anything.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry Som that you have to face that kind of behavior. You shouldn't, no one should. Stay strong. Everyone of us has to take responsibility of this world and lets try together to educate people to love and care of eachothers. With big hugs to you Tanja
THANK YOU TANJA FOR YOUR COMMENT AND CONSOLATION AND OPENNESS AS YOU HAVE ALWAYS....
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